Ashes...

White, Single-limbed,
lean in frame, untamed
draped in smoke...
an Aphrodite, you claim!

it glows, as I draw near
locked, in your lips
and I breathe in my tears
silently waiting, in the haze!

you never let go,
and it clings.
burning in its smoldering gaze
I slowly disappear.

Sentient

in your shadow
in your splendor
i yet wonder
what are you?

warm and tender
i surrender
and i wonder
why are you?

dark and hazel
lost in gaze
i do wonder...
where are you?

Transient

I am transient
a non-essential
a go between

hooked on survival
drugged on pleasantries
absent in reflections
hazy in memories

problems and troubles
are dearer than me
you hold onto them
and you let me leave

a castle in air
a house of cards
a dream, a wisp, a memory charm

the shrill of the good times
the laugh of the giddy

an existential difficulty ~ for all good memories.

Dicide

a double edged decision
in its wake
breaks the heart
or pardons the ache... for life
questions..
counter-questions
each bursting through...
a peace of frame,
leaving bullet holes behind.

moral convictions..
perceptions
predictions..
all lose ground and remain
dull..lifeless..practical.. mundane.

dreams or wisps of imagination
curling up in smoke
dying in flames..

I do not know what is to become of me
Happiness is something.. I cannot claim

yet... I wait
I breathe.. I pray..
awaiting my fate..

Bloom in red

Stage 1: The sketch


2. The first layer


3. The dead layer


4. the final look