Last Day

Don't look back
never look back
but thoughts still fluttered,
on the past

you didn't matter
"us" didn't matter
but I wondered if it would last!

you didn't lie
you never lied
your only fault was that you never stayed
never shared... your heart


Broken shards, reflecting,
a million smiles...
'you came back!'

but with a heavy heart, you said
"I have to go,
I told you it wouldn't last"

how can you be so righteous!, even as you break my heart!

एहसास - 'a feeling'

क्या थी वो बात?
थी जो बात कहनी तुम्हे!
दबे हुए अल्फाज़,
तेरी ही याद
सताए मुझे
कहनी है कुछ बात?
कल रात भी
ख्वाबों ने सताया मुझे
चुप हो तुम
चुप हूँ मैं भी
कैसा प्यार जताया तुमने
रंजिश और गम कि बात न करो
दामन रोज़ भिगोया हमने

आज कह दो!
वो बात ,
थी जो बात कहनी तुम्हे
दस्तक है ये ख़ुशी कि
या दिल कि है धड़कन?
कह दो आज!
क्यूँकी मैंने सिर्फ चाहा तुम्हे

'Daayara' - fencing the boundary

sifting through the memories
(memories i have collected of you)
i wonder if you loved me
(or if i loved you too)
I wonder if you left,
because you had nothing to say.
or if you just forgot,
that it was something special we shared
and love had nothing to do with it all.

I still miss you
when an odd hour strikes
but I would surely not seek you
when i need someone to fight
remember this now:

"if suddenly
you forget me,
do not look for me
for I shall already have forgotten you"


once lost
twice redeemed
three times an offer
to go extreme
but even i have boundaries
which is where I am at.


PS - "the 4 lines in quotes, have been directly quoted from the poem 'If you forget me' by Pablo Neruda"
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दायरा

यादों का कायदा
ये यादों का फ़ायदा
चाहा था मैंने तुम्हे ?
या ये था सिर्फ तुम्हारी चाहत का जायज़ा
उम्मीद थी कभी
कि तुम्हे भी होगा एहसास
जो था हमारे बीच
वो था चाहत से भी ज़यादा

खटखटाते लम्हों में भी
तुझे ना बुलायेंगे
ढूंढेंगे जब ख्याल तुम्हे
तो कुछ यूँही उन्हें समझायेंगे

गर तुम भूल गए हमें
तो तुमको भी हम भुलायेंगे

तुम चुप कहीं खो गए
और अब यही मेरा दायरा