Absence

Out alone in the balmy night
just looking for someone to fight
I stand alone by the swing
fighting the frustrations from within

Nothing.. to prepare
Nothing.. to rebel
Nothing.. to love
Nothing.. to gain

Have been caged here in solitude
I seem to be lost to my friends..
Because eventho they write to me
I sometimes think they pretend..

hoping for a remedy
to cure away this pain
I long to be with someone again
to fill up.... the absence

Days Gone by...

Came across a poem by Alfred Tennyson, wanted to share with you all..

"The Princess":



Tears, idle tears, I know not what they mean,
Tears from the depth of some divine despair
Rise in the heart, and gather to the eyes,
In looking on the happy autumn-fields,
And thinking of the days no more.

Fresh as the first beam glittering on a sail
That brings our friends up from the underworld,
Sad as the last which reddens over one
That sinks with all we love below the verge;
So sad, so fresh, the days that are no more.

Ah, sad and strange as in dark summer dawns
The earliest pipe of half-awaken'd birds
To dying ears, when unto dying eyes
The casement slowly grows a glimmering square;
So sad, so strange, the days that are no more.

Dear as remember'd kisses after death,
And sweet as those by hopeless fancy feign'd
On lips that are for others; deep as love
Deep as first love, and wild with all regret;
O Death in Life, the days that are no more!

Staircase

Going along the stairs…climbing up
Each step I have to take...and remind me, that I am another step closer
To what it is that I am leading to…have no clear idea…
But can’t stay here…have to take another step…

Away from where I was standing, Always on a new step…always moving on…
Losing familiarity…gaining friends…
Oscillating…in my highs and lows…
Nevertheless…moving on…

It feels great to have someone walking along...
holding you in case you stumble or fall
It feels better to give support to someone else who you meet on the way…
Understanding each other…& understanding our reason for moving on…

I know I am not alone in this journey…

I don’t even know if the next step that I take leads up….or is dragging me down….somewhere I do have an idea…but that too only of moving on

Leaving milestones…along the way…
to help us know our road back…when we lose our way…
by making true friends

Coz even though this journey is always about you and your goals alone…
It just seems all worthwhile to reach the end with friends along your side…

Encouraging you…sharing your sorrows…making each step a journey in itself…

What is it that we carry in our baggage when we move along….
memories…and trivia…
a feeling of loving and being loved
Caring, sharing, taking, stealing, demanding…hating…living!!!

Uncertainties are scattered all along the way…
Sometimes bringing sudden unexpected joys…..
sometimes taking away the guiding light…leaving you astray…

But always...we move on….that is the only way we know…

And somehow we always find a home at every step tht we take…
making it a little more of our own

It is said that the End justifies the means….maybe I’ll know for sure what it has all been about only after I have lived all, seen all, felt all

Why!

LIFE an acronym whose mystery we have been unable to solve .... yet ...

is it about being nice, tolerable, adorable, good-looking, living... ?
or abt taking risks..risking it all..being sick, killing yourself...killing others..

those who don't think about the reasons which brought them here... are blissfully happy
they are here only to enjoy the fruits of what has evidently been given to them as a problem to solve..

Why is it such a question..to find out why ??
Why is it that things turnout the way the things turnout..is it actually possible to predict outcomes..to find out the answer

am i really not the one making my own decisions...are these not my own thoughts..

why do we dream ..why do we hope..what is it that we dream about..

What is it that makes me happy....That should be an easy question...I am happy when I am with my friends, family, when I know i have made my freinds happy..when i know tht they are happy...when I am doin something that i want to do..
but again..what is it that i want to do
sometime i want to be sad too...i want to cry.....am i happy being sad...does that make sense

am i alone..am i supposed to be alone..
even with the world around me.......................

Its so easy to understand the others need when you completely love..
there is no need for trivialities....it removes all the walls..and hence is known as the key with which we can find the answer to all..