cooped up

Separation Anxiety

2011-01-19T10:09:00.001+02:00

yet again words fail

tumbling mumbling

time trickles away

i grab on and again fail

it slips away

i slip away

i rely on love to mark my trail

one day you may find my way

in that hope alone

i now say

forgive my mistakes

cherish my love

memorize my words

i love you - forever and for always

destiny

2011-01-14T12:46:00.001+02:00

धुंधला सा वो आइना था
या धुंधली थी वो छवि
उसके अक्स को थी मैं खड़ी ढूँढती

आज पल भर में वो आइना
है जैसे घुल सा गया
तुम मिले.. हम मिले...
कोई अपना मिल गया॥

ख्यालों में कैद हैं
तेरी बाहों में कैद हैं
मेरे खवाबों को जैसे
नया आसमां मिल गया॥

तुझमें ही खो के
हैं तुझको ही ढूँढा
तेरा प्यार जो मिला
मुझे जहाँ मिल गया ॥

Oh! November

2010-11-18T09:51:00.003+02:00

Regressing from tasks

I rather brood on the past

settling of the cobwebs,

roaches rule the raft

silent by the raving sea..

wind gathers up the mast

hoping for new adventures

escaping from the last

looters crave the treasure chest

snatchers wish to cut my heart

i wish they had done their job

the rift I feel can rip me apart

~ Love u ~

2010-10-13T12:38:00.004+03:00

a twirling view

of blurred delights

a happy swing

in the morning bright

i love this day

which gulped the night

swift and tight

my happy smiles

binge on the good

forget the slights

take up the cheer

cherish the sight

we are good together

its just right

lock up these memories

erase the fights

light up the candles

kiss me good night

Photograph by:

L.O.V.E.by ~LullabyOfLilly

Photography / Miscellaneous

So long

2010-08-27T11:00:00.002+03:00

I tumbled into the misty miffs

cajoling blurred words out,

into the foggy silence.

stumbling amid the distance

which separates us,

isolated, on a stony island.

numbing pain as I brush my fingers

across your palm,

and you still win... your frustrating silence!

witness the love still pining for you

hold on and trust your heart

I am no stranger to what bothers you

I implore.. and then, depart.

A-Wait

2010-07-06T12:48:00.006+03:00

trivial in a conversation

muddle in a thought

crumble in the humor

mumble in the laugh

it's the inconsequential

it's the confusion of the heart

it's the agony of the wonder

it's the sigh when we are apart

Lost I am, without the thought of you

disgruntled and distraught

wanting to be with you

more than I could have fought

head home by the sundry lanes

quickest - through the spring path

I will pray the demons give you way,

I hope they heed my bleeding heart...

~ treasured ~

2010-05-11T11:40:00.002+03:00

a treacherous skip

of the heartbeat, amidst

a routine of everyday chores

the trembling lips,

are a party to it, alas

I can't hide it anymore.

there is more to me when you are around

there is more to me when you smile,

there is more of me which loves you unbound

there is more of mine when you smile.

corroded are the memory lanes

frequent visitation, makes it so

to the home I made on the very lane

some memories are ever so!

chimes

2010-03-31T15:52:00.005+03:00

tarnished and tawdry
of an age begone
rusted and broken
myriad colors beckon
it catches my fancy..
I give it a try
it jingles, like a muffled cry
hanging, in the curtains dry
it chimes when the wind walks by

it sings me a story, a sweet lullaby.

Photo courtesy:http://jennyjones3.deviantart.com/art/Windchime-88273457

~ Saiyyan ~

2010-01-05T13:16:00.004+02:00

संभालो! की ख़ुशी
सहमी सी है दिल में
उभारो! की हँसी भी
दबी सी है दिल में

निखारो! की रंगत
है फूलों ने छीनी
समा लो मुझे!
की आँखें हैं भीगी

नज़ारे है बहके
उम्मीदें हैं ठहरी
कहाँ हो! की मेरी
धड़कन है धीमी

देखा करते थे तुम्हे
ख्वाबों के बहाने!
छुपा लो! की हक़ीकत
और प्यारी है उनसे.

Image Courtesy: http://fc05.deviantart.com/fs31/i/2008/188/8/d/Maude_Fealy_and_flowers_by_M3ment0M0ri.jpg

~time traveller~

2009-12-29T09:21:00.003+02:00

what is this...
passing of time,
sand sifting through my hand,
a fleeting memory
which lets you go.

I get lost in the maze
of happy thoughts and
I get lost in the way they rot
neglecting the hurt that grows
time still goes on.

Clocks on the wall
are all messengers
reminding us that he won't care
to pause or plunder
every now becomes a has been

strange are its ways
stranger are the days
I barely survive the wonder
and journey in the "nick of time".

Image Courtesy: http://picturepost.files.wordpress.com/2007/09/time.jpg

I yet wonder...

2009-12-17T08:42:00.004+02:00

a fault in default as you look at me
you look at me and I grumble
in uncertainty
there are faults in me.. I wonder
and you wonder, quite plainly
how is it that luck found us
and love found us, stealthily

locked in thoughts and wonder
there is much I ponder,
upon the daily trivialities
will you look i wonder
as faults creep in too surely.

barely apart and instantly longing
how is it that I found my heart
skipping a beat and sighing
There is much still yet that I do not know
I do not know and am trying
How is it that you found me?
you found me then love found me..
I wonder of beauty with longing...

Image courtesy: http://fc00.deviantart.net/fs31/f/2008/209/2/3/Longing_for___by_InertiaK.jpg

::blogheart::

2009-10-27T17:13:00.006+02:00

here settled the sand storm in the valley of the deep,
unveiling a tender heart weary and incomplete.
it had a story and a song
of a journey, eons long
and an ending which was happy, yet bitter sweet

traveling through the landscapes of many a broken hearts
it was fearful and wary
of all tht could fall apart
faithful yet cautious in all its feelings
much was hidden, instead of revealing..

ignorant of the path chosen by fate
it fluttered over flowers
despaired in pain.
longed for love.. sighed in disdain.

slowly and surely
it has now learned to survive..
I treasure this story
for it could be mine.

Solitude

2009-09-11T10:04:00.001+03:00

burden of wishful thinking
trapped within crumbled folds,
clenched fists - a mock witness
Of the twisted agony
hours untold
anxiety mingled in fear
sour as the solitude

Image- courtesy deviantart (www.deviantart.com/deviation/102106623/)

~ खलल ~

2009-08-28T10:42:00.004+03:00

ख़ुशी रहती नहीं,
खाली पैमाना देख के
ख्वाब सजते नहीं,
बिखरे अरमान देख के
हम बदनाम सही,
इश्क का फरमान भेज के
और हैरान सही,
तेरा पैगाम देख के।

तेरी महफिल में अब अनजान सही
तुझको यूँ आबाद देख के।

Myopia

2009-07-29T08:09:00.013+03:00

scout for thoughts
where none exist.
reach out and laugh
yet, tears persist.
is the hope alive?
delusions consist,
of unmet desires.

Denial at heart,
acceptance within.
unsettled, distraught,
queries therein.
Can I have you or not?
'never', you claim.
Can I ever move on?
'surrender', in vain.

Fate intervenes.
We drift apart.
Smiles creep in,
through a weary heart.
was it love?.. or was it not?
was I lucky? ... or were you not?

~ एक आस ~

2009-06-24T11:24:00.004+03:00

तिनके थे कुछ बाकी
अब दरख्त ही है खाली।
तुम हो की नही?
तुम हो ही नही....
पर तुम्हारी आस है बाकी।
ख़्वाबों की कैफ़ियत
दहशत सी खामोशी,
बंद इन कमरों में
तुम्हारी आहट है बाकी।
चिल्लाते हैं रोज़ हम
कुछ सिसकियों के भरोसे,
काश की तुम्हारे दिल में
मेरा प्यार है बाकी।

~ Tragedy ~

2009-05-01T15:53:00.002+03:00

stoic and gray
slowly it stayed
made this his home
uncurling, unfurled
surreptitiously it lay
marking its own
territory and death
casually it came
to claim in sleep
all that i owned.

it has been a while
since Life lived here
its now a dwelling
of Devils and Banes
it has been a while
since Smiles slept here
its now a memory for
tears and stains.

Light up the charred candles
unleash the prayers
exhaust the archives
of goodwill and dares
challenge the Lord
bask in forgiveness
reclaim a final win
and survive this stillness.

~ anki

~ treads ~

2009-03-17T14:27:00.003+02:00

a definitive destiny
road mapped unto the goal
path, lined with tricks and treats
all for me to galore
Glory awaits!, such is the claim
by all those, inroads.
I yet walk a tawdry path
I still wish for more.

aspire, perspire, inspire, cajole
satisfaction achieved
confessions retold
all is misery
yet I adore, the heart, the beat, the very soul

a transition

2009-02-02T16:00:00.007+02:00

forbidden fires of heaven -
troubles of a weary heart.
ever paused to wonder,
perils plundering land of Gods?

high amongst the clouds
throned in pine
robed in green
white as a shiny beard
wise and witty, they all seem.

sunshine gleaming on snowy peaks
the only warmth they ever seek
aloof and cold
judgmental and old,
The Almighty!, we are ever told.

Demon's laugh sounds meek.
Hell welcomes me back
away from the bothering snow
exhausted in devil's lair.

~longing

2009-01-22T16:28:00.002+02:00

Tethered to the sparkling sky
a lonely pillow of cloud
haloed in the moonlight
silently gloating afloat
all attempts to wipe it clean
& it still lingers about

I choose to fall in love with it.

I hug it in delight.
I now wish that it were so,
around me every night.

smiling through pale white lips.
Amused at my stance,
it chides me for being foolish
and then,
moves on.

पहचान

2008-12-27T17:41:00.003+02:00

आसमान पर सितारों में कई जुगनू भी तो होंगे,
सितारों की चमक से दूर, वोह भी कहीं चमकते ही होंगे
चाँद की चांदनी और सूरज की रौशनी से परे
इन जुगनुओं की रौशनी भी तो किसी के चहेरे पे चमक लाती होगी।

सितारों के शहर में, एक जुगनू बेचारा,
अपना वजूद ढूँढता हुआ, घूमता आवारा।
आज उसे भी अपनी मंजिल नज़र आई,
औरों की चमक में उसे अपनी पहचान नज़र आई।

आंखों में आज उसके सपनो की चमक छायी,
उसकी खुशी में, सबके चेहरों पर खुशी आई।
आज सितारों में एक जुगनू ने,
अपनी जगह बनाई।।

Ashes...

2008-09-30T11:36:00.006+03:00

White, Single-limbed,
lean in frame, untamed
draped in smoke...
an Aphrodite, you claim!

it glows, as I draw near
locked, in your lips
and I breathe in my tears
silently waiting, in the haze!

you never let go,
and it clings.
burning in its smoldering gaze
I slowly disappear.

Sentient

2008-09-26T08:23:00.008+03:00

in your shadow
in your splendor
i yet wonder
what are you?

warm and tender
i surrender
and i wonder
why are you?

dark and hazel
lost in gaze
i do wonder...
where are you?

Transient

2008-09-18T07:53:00.005+03:00

I am transient
a non-essential
a go between

hooked on survival
drugged on pleasantries
absent in reflections
hazy in memories

problems and troubles
are dearer than me
you hold onto them
and you let me leave

a castle in air
a house of cards
a dream, a wisp, a memory charm

the shrill of the good times
the laugh of the giddy

an existential difficulty ~ for all good memories.

Dicide

2008-09-11T01:01:00.002+03:00

a double edged decision
in its wake
breaks the heart
or pardons the ache... for life
questions..
counter-questions
each bursting through...
a peace of frame,
leaving bullet holes behind.

moral convictions..
perceptions
predictions..
all lose ground and remain
dull..lifeless..practical.. mundane.

dreams or wisps of imagination
curling up in smoke
dying in flames..

I do not know what is to become of me
Happiness is something.. I cannot claim

yet... I wait
I breathe.. I pray..
awaiting my fate..

Bloom in red

2008-09-08T19:13:00.007+03:00

Stage 1: The sketch

2. The first layer

3. The dead layer

4. the final look

surreal

2008-07-22T12:29:00.004+03:00

of the green in spring time
and the love on valentine,
sweet wine at supper time,
guitar strings and lullaby.
thoughts which always stand by you
bitter winds or summer chimes,
budding rose and winter rhymes.

cozy in twilight, a farewell
I bid, your memories,
your smiles...
candle unlit, unshed tears
snow flakes of breathless fears
wondering at happenstance
which brought you here...

eyes brooding, looking at you
smiles brewing, thinking of you
love blooming, in your hue
trapped in conversations.

~गर्दिश ~

2008-07-07T12:01:00.013+03:00

नज़्म की रूह के हैं कुछ कोने खाली,
उल्फत भरी साँसों की अब रज़ा क्या है?
छीन ली मेरे नर्म होठों की हँसी,
मेरी रंजिश है, मेरी खता क्या है?

दर्द और साज़ के फसानो की खातिर

हुस्न-ओ-इश्क़ में डूबी .. वफ़ा क्या है?

नम हैं आँखें मेरी, खामोशइयों का खौफ़ है,
आज महफिल में, तेरे आने की, .. वजह क्या है?

~~

Sleep Deprived

2008-07-01T20:40:00.007+03:00

hazel, glazed...
dazzled eyes..
cushioned in pink,
averse to light.
addicted to blink,
after every night.
lined in black,
tear trails stand.. within,
un-wet cheeks.

unwanted thoughts,
unbidden, unsought!
breeching feeble fences,
creeping therein.
chaotic n clever
battles in sleep,
attacking in inches.
Minds.., they steal.
enraging thoughts,
in weird dreams.

restless hearts,
leave all distraught
no one in control.
yes, I am "sleep deprived"
barely able.... rarely alive.
Incomplete!
Un-Whole!

Resistance to Change

2008-06-16T17:04:00.001+03:00

consumed with a fierce hunger,
the seething hunger ~ to devour pain.

I refuse the challenge!
~a challenge to change...
I would rather abstain
refrain... sustain..
static and steady, I could even explain
No I won't Change
rather not change
better not change.
.. its hard to explain...

reasons terrify me.
seasons verify.. the claims.. again!
change is the sameness
it is a constant, in the guise of change.
No I won't change
rather not change
better not change
.. there is nothing to explain.

don't you see
they fool you all~
they take away from you
all that you are
mold you into something shiny
all lustre.. no talk..
they write your destinies.. your downfall
yet you ask me
question me about it all
No I won't change
rather not change
better not change
... change implies destruction
change implies construction
... change takes me away... from ............ where you are!

I won't change.

Oscar gems

2008-06-10T08:16:00.002+03:00

This is the list of all 80 films that have won an Oscar for Best Picture. Bold the ones you've seen.

Wings
The Broadway Melody
All Quiet on the Western Front
Cimarron
Grand Hotel
Cavalcade
It Happened One Night
Mutiny on the Bounty
The Great Ziegfeld
The Life of Emile Zola
You Can't Take It with You
Gone With the Wind
Rebecca
How Green Was My Valley
Mrs. Miniver
Casablanca
Going My Way
The Lost Weekend
The Best Years of Our Lives
Gentleman's Agreement
Hamlet
All the King's Men
All About Eve
An American in Paris
The Greatest Show on Earth
From Here to Eternity
On the Waterfront
Marty
Around the World in 80 Days
The Bridge on the River Kwai
Gigi
Ben Hur
The Apartment
West Side Story
Lawrence of Arabia
Tom Jones
My Fair Lady
The Sound of Music
A Man for All Seasons
In the Heat of the Night
Oliver!
Midnight Cowboy
Patton
The French Connection
The Godfather
The Sting
The Godfather Part II
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
Rocky
Annie Hall
The Deer Hunter
Kramer v. Kramer
Ordinary People
Chariots of Fire
Gandhi
Terms of Endearment
Amadeus
Out of Africa
Platoon
The Last Emperor
Rain Man
Driving Miss Daisy
Dances with Wolves
The Silence of the Lambs
Unforgiven
Schindler's List
Forrest Gump
Braveheart
The English Patient
Titanic
Shakespeare in Love
American Beauty
Gladiator
A Beautiful Mind
Chicago
Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
Million Dollar Baby
Crash
The Departed
No Country for Old Men

~Cracks~

2008-06-04T15:02:00.006+03:00

Can you see it spreading?
from across the seas?
miniscule distances or
giant leagues??

separations, limitations
crevices and cracks
bound together, yet
only silence, fills the gaps

can you hear me, when I call?
can you love me, when I fall?
"Yes".. you say.. and still,
the cracks widen

असमंजस

2008-05-22T15:19:00.003+03:00

one lingers and i falter in its wake
still holding on,
to its stale breath
i cant really let go

another lingers, swift in its melody
i chase on
flying across its ethereal surface
it swallows me.. yet remains unaffected

wraiths..one claims
one suspects dementors
while another suggests.. i should surrender

गुज़ारिश

2008-05-08T16:14:00.003+03:00

दो पल झपकें , वो पल पलकें ।

कोपल देखें , नैन तेरे ॥

तारे रिम झिम, रातें गिन गिन ।

बीते पल पल, रोक इन्हें ॥

कल कल बहता, रहता दिन भर ।

वक़्त का दरिया, रोते रोते ॥

आ नैना भर, देखूं तुझको ।

हर पल गुज़रे, हँसते हँसते ॥

सा पा म गा सा रे

सा रे ग ग सा

"Suggestions"

2008-03-17T15:03:00.011+02:00

Harried dresses,

Worrisome tresses,

curling about in frenzy!

gazing in longing..

at lines and mirrors,

believing the lies and sinners.

each bearing a silver lining,

a reflection, of its own.

Do I map ?

to the expectation of beauties...

you so rarely adore

Evenly you look at me,

unimpressed.

Consciously I wonder..,

and you close the door!

Last Day

2008-02-28T12:52:00.003+02:00

Don't look back
never look back
but thoughts still fluttered,
on the past

you didn't matter
"us" didn't matter
but I wondered if it would last!

you didn't lie
you never lied
your only fault was that you never stayed
never shared... your heart

Broken shards, reflecting,
a million smiles...
'you came back!'

but with a heavy heart, you said
"I have to go,
I told you it wouldn't last"

how can you be so righteous!, even as you break my heart!

एहसास - 'a feeling'

2008-02-06T19:53:00.000+02:00

क्या थी वो बात?
थी जो बात कहनी तुम्हे!
दबे हुए अल्फाज़,
तेरी ही याद
सताए मुझे
कहनी है कुछ बात?
कल रात भी
ख्वाबों ने सताया मुझे
चुप हो तुम
चुप हूँ मैं भी
कैसा प्यार जताया तुमने
रंजिश और गम कि बात न करो
दामन रोज़ भिगोया हमने

आज कह दो!
वो बात ,
थी जो बात कहनी तुम्हे
दस्तक है ये ख़ुशी कि
या दिल कि है धड़कन?
कह दो आज!
क्यूँकी मैंने सिर्फ चाहा तुम्हे

'Daayara' - fencing the boundary

2008-02-03T00:37:00.001+02:00

sifting through the memories
(memories i have collected of you)
i wonder if you loved me
(or if i loved you too)
I wonder if you left,
because you had nothing to say.
or if you just forgot,
that it was something special we shared
and love had nothing to do with it all.

I still miss you
when an odd hour strikes
but I would surely not seek you
when i need someone to fight
remember this now:

"if suddenly
you forget me,
do not look for me
for I shall already have forgotten you"

once lost
twice redeemed
three times an offer
to go extreme
but even i have boundaries
which is where I am at.

PS - "the 4 lines in quotes, have been directly quoted from the poem 'If you forget me' by Pablo Neruda"
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दायरा

यादों का कायदा
ये यादों का फ़ायदा
चाहा था मैंने तुम्हे ?
या ये था सिर्फ तुम्हारी चाहत का जायज़ा
उम्मीद थी कभी
कि तुम्हे भी होगा एहसास
जो था हमारे बीच
वो था चाहत से भी ज़यादा

खटखटाते लम्हों में भी
तुझे ना बुलायेंगे
ढूंढेंगे जब ख्याल तुम्हे
तो कुछ यूँही उन्हें समझायेंगे

गर तुम भूल गए हमें
तो तुमको भी हम भुलायेंगे

तुम चुप कहीं खो गए
और अब यही मेरा दायरा

"Taare Zameen Par" ~ se inspired

2008-01-14T06:35:00.000+02:00

khwabon mein ulajhte chehre,
lehrate, nachte,
sunehere badlon se hote hue,
woh panchi.. unke gharonde.

neele aasman mein
tairti machliyan
bhigoye hue sooraj ke
sookhte hue kapde

sach hai yeh sirf khwab hi hai
par dekha hai maine ise
aap hi ne dikhaya hai
is ek kahani mein, ek saaz piroya hai

taare yun roz aate nahi zameen par
darsheel, aamir
aapne ek nayi duniya ka yeh
dwaar khola hai

ab yahan khayalon mein,
roz koi aayega
aur nayi kahanaiyon se
ise aur sajayega.

smithereens

2008-01-11T21:13:00.000+02:00

लहराता है खंजर कहीं
आघोश के अंधेरे में
और फसीं हुई है रोशनी
इस दिल-दुनिया के झमेले में
खंजर करता है वार
पर नज़र आता नहीं, जो
बहता है लहू अब भी
हमारे ही सीने से
आसुओं को रोक सके नहीं
और ठहर गए इसी लम्हे में
जहाँ फसीं हुई है रोशनी
और हम गुम हैं अंधेरों में
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

blades in stealth
hiding in agony
trapping the light
is my heart's misery

slashing my heart
are yet unseen knives, as
the heart bleeds
in my own misery

tears unbidden, carry on,
and I am stuck in this moment
as is the light, lost
along with me in darkness.

Transition

2007-12-21T20:39:00.000+02:00

dressed in robes
colorless and white
of my own choice
hair tied in a bun
uptight!

a book in hand
a dangling bookmark
a scrap of paper
with a lipstick mark

awaiting at the platform
train to arrive
set for the transition
from sunshine to moonlight

a light baggage
of a story or two
all piled up, alongside..
a shuddering breath, a lone tear

I wait for you, tonight!

~dil~

2007-12-06T20:55:00.001+02:00

carve my heart out..
slice it and dice it..
serve it on a plate..

relish it..
cherish its taste..

its a meal well spent for..
its a meal to remember..

have u ever looked into the eyes of someone who,
so willingly surrenders.

Blur

2007-11-21T17:42:00.000+02:00

sections and aisles
rows and columns
divided and separated
arranged and ordered
everything in its place

yet Life!.. is a mess,
no boundaries to repair,
failing to distinguish.
what is real.. ?
what is not there?

All seems a Blur
a fantasy..
I am no longer sure
If this is me.. or just destiny..

Abandoned Hearts!

2007-11-11T07:31:00.000+02:00

In a closet of afternoon
glowing memories
in deep red
words of comfort

holding hands
on a Summer's eve
blue lake
.. your eyes are dead..

reaching out
wipe the tears
..a colourless stain..
of longing

the heart..beats
like a resounding knock
on an abandoned door
..all is black..

Tiger-Lily! :)

2007-10-28T05:21:00.001+02:00

Another Dark Lord!

2007-10-25T10:58:00.001+03:00

Trust me to be the one
who fate chose, for the fight!
whenever i dwell in delight...
to catch me , by surprise..
throwing me amidst the war
as they chant,,
The savior!... The Lord!

I do not fight to own glory
or triumph over those who suffer
I only fight to complete the story
saving all and as many
tearing down the crossroads
of time.... of destiny

the prophecies run amok
declaring my fate for all to read
and I end up as the green-eyed savior
to keep the dark-lord at bay
and the world at peace

I wish i could mock..
stutter and frown
or ignore all that goes around
give up all.... in exchange of normality..
but fate always gets its dues
even in the realms of impossible fantasies!

Drained

2007-10-21T11:45:00.000+03:00

words of comfort
arms around
hands held tight
stray tears...
lurking about
thoughts of loss
of emotions
of respite
I drain you all...
I take away.. a little of your life
the burden is heavy in my heart
and i stay away now
keep my horrors at bay now
keep myself astray now
so now you have your own
and i have my own... life!

zamana!

2007-09-17T09:27:00.000+03:00

zamane ki soch mein ... na jane hum kahan hain!
humari nazar mein lekin
yeh zamana jawan hai..
nayi khasiyat, naye khayalat hain
par is boodhi zameen ke dil mein
koi humara kahan hai?

tanhaiyon ke pul hain
akelepan ke kamre
nadaniyon ke charche
aur majbooriyon se kharche!

aaj ek pal ke liye har fasana jawan hai
par har jawan pal ka yeh fasana kahan hai?

aasuon ke katghare mein jo khada hai zamana ..
to use faisla sunane wale jasbaat kahan hai..

Snippets.. thoughts..

2007-09-01T07:38:00.001+03:00

kabhi kabhi...
bahut man karta hai ki koi khaas saath hota..
fir khayal ata hai..
saath hota to yeh khayal na hota

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

apki baaton mein khoye..
aur raat ho gayi..
bina aankhen band karke jo soye...
subah ho gayi...
aapke saath bitaye kuch pal..
aur zindagi ho gayi

- dedicated to varti.. thanks for a grand bday..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
San Francisco

Golden gates
sunny state
seaside walks
lovely talks
foggy skies
starry nights
twisted roads
droopy boughs
friends along
singing a song
ultimate peace
sharing thoughts
moonlit paths
rides in BART
taking a cruise
finding a muse
figuring it out
as sun sets down

i can say it in a word..
californication is the term

A Pink Rose...

2007-08-10T07:10:00.001+03:00

another oil painting!!
Believe me it looks better from distance.. :|
and it looked better before i added pink!

casse' - broken

2007-08-03T22:30:00.000+03:00

O ye of lost faith..
behold and trust the sight
you are about to see
a world upturned
for no reason .. no fun
only pain remaining ..
for all to see!
hanging on thin threads
of fading glory,scattered hope!
turned away from light
stopping only to reflect and mope..
drowned in clouds of mahogany
drenched in layers of sheen
all are but memories...
latched and locked
survivors.. of battles fought ..
memoirs of how things used to be..
do not cross our path
we maybe broken
we are not yet lost
we carry marks of grief
we carry it as hope
in remembrance of what we were
in respect .. to all that was before

Scene ~ A Visit to the museum

ज़ाहिर सी बात है

2007-07-30T18:52:00.002+03:00

हैरान निगाहों में
तपती हुई सी आस है....
शायराना महफिल में
चुप्पी की आवाज़ है....
नम आंखों को
नींद की तलाश है....
आप से ही हम हैं
ज़ाहिर बात है!

Painful Recitation

2007-07-09T06:54:00.000+03:00

deep set red eyes
lurking on a cursed
tortured soul,
feeding on thoughts of recluse
drained of exhaustion
letting go of the pain
reliving old wounds
whirring of an old ceiling fan
indicating time..
not bothering to stop
not horrified...
peacefully moving on
too broken to notice..
a tightening embrace
slowly healing..
eyes sting with tears
an ache longing to be released..
fade in....
fade out..

Storyteller

2007-06-22T02:26:00.000+03:00

locked in a steely cage
a ravenous beast at large
a fairy princess in a debt
knights riding across the marsh
universe transformed
into a magical place
shimmering castles
glimmering halls

touted as the world's greatest
evil, conspiring, conniving, lot!
the hero all alone, but brave
fearless and bright.. in the dark!
dragons and dark lords
awaiting their fate
kings and elves .. showing the path!

They all reside in a fairytale
and they all reside in our hearts..
inspired in a lonely night
they teach us to fight
they teach us to laugh
coz the world might be a dreary place
but in a story.. we can skip that part :)

Colours of Magic!

2007-06-11T20:14:00.000+03:00

world came to life
in the fraction of a heart beat
there it was...
and then it wasn't !
the silence in the milliseconds
lasting till eternity
i was at the very heart
the heart.. of every heartbeat
streaming from every end
bouts of colours.. colours divine..
i was at the birthplace,
origin of every second in time.
sprouting out from the very core
resting on.. all that is now
all that is ever
all that is never..forever

senses on an overdrive
all in a heartbeat
there he was
and then he wasnt

been tagged!

2007-05-25T07:28:00.000+03:00

Tagged by devil...now let's see what's the tag all about...

rules are:
* each blogger starts with eight - ten random facts/habits about themselves...
* people who are tagged need to write posts in their own blog about the tag and post these rules...
* at the end of your post, you need to choose people to get tagged and list their names...(I am not doin this)

ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT???
9 stitches... left a scar.. had an operation

WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW???
a hug..

WHAT DO YOU MISS???
hanging around with my friends... pune.. monsoon in bombay

WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION???
a bracelet.. i dont knw why.. but i rarely step out of the house without it..
I have had it with me for more than 8 years now

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL???
smell of wet earth after rainfall...
smell of agarbatti in mornings.. when dadi is doin pooja

DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC???
i had felt it once.. i was in a lift with someone who i just cud not stand!!

DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK???
used to get really scared.. especially coz i had a vivid imagination and i enjoyed reading vampire stories n watch horror movies..
and well.. i do blive in supernatural things...
but since i hv worked in a night shift project for 2 years.. i hv been out n abt at all odd hours of the night.. so i am still cautious.. but not so afraid..

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME???
perry ellis..

COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS???
coffee!! (mocha)

IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE???
kheer.. yummmmyyy

WHO IS THE LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU MAD???
er.. when was it tht i got mad?? cant remember..

DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE???
english. hindi. little marathi..

WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU???
i usually just say it so.. to all my friends.. they are all such a treasure..
but romantically speaking.. "just hold their hands n dont let go :)"

SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
25

BLONDES OR BRUNETTES???
... is not a factor...

WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN???
home!!

HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF INDIA???
yups...

WHERE WERE YOU BORN???
bombay.. in my colony...where my home is.. :)

FIRST JOB???
infy.. still at it!

WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST???
umm.. er... my good nature?? yeah i think..

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL???
doesn't matter...

WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY???
to be with ALL my friends..

HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT???
2..

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE???
nopes...

DO YOU WISH ON STARS???
always!

WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE???
and the point is?

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING???
i dont mind it.. but i really wish it was much better

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT???
do not prefer meat

ANY BAD HABITS???
tendency to over analyze

WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF???
CD on a shelf?? i dont think i have any! {thats embarrasing}

IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU???
depends on who i was..

WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME???
wherever i hv my friends.. thts like being at home

DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY???
i rely on my intuition.. has never failed so far..

WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD???
not exactly a toy.. but i was fascinated with water..
i had actually come near to flooding the house once by letting all the taps run!!

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT???
nopes...

DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF???
yeah..

THING YOU ATE???
thing?.. but neways.. rajma chawal

SIBLINGS???
an older brother

YOU LIKE SUSHI???
hv never tried it

ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT???
no not shy.. i guess i wil be too scared of an unexpected answer..

Shadow

2007-05-24T00:52:00.000+03:00

coming in the alley
crawling out from beneath
kneeling,
bending towards the glowing flame
gaining inches as i walk away

dancing with the howling winds
they simmer
they shudder..
awaiting their fate

slicing through the fog of night
a scream, shrieking in pain
i glance up at the full moon
the creature strikes again!!

witness to all..
..the shady crimes
i often wonder aloud
what if - we could ask the shadows
who has been venturing about?

snuggled

2007-05-22T07:32:00.000+03:00

straightjacket-ed!

2007-05-10T01:43:00.000+03:00

loony tunes in my head
chirping ahead
walking adept
striking a chord
beating the thoughts
i am singing a song
laughin along
who goes there?
nobody's care
scary .. hairy ..
..crawling !
like a spider
~~~
slowly creeping behind
the fear
the fear.. in my mind
all in my mind he says
trapped in white halls
city halls - the great!
i wonder.. wander
saunter aloud
there is nobody here
nobody about!!
its all but me
in this pretty head
"oh what a creep"
and then.......................... she left!

Kaash...

2007-05-04T22:13:00.000+03:00

baaton mein.. ghul jane ki,
yaadon mein.. kho jane ki,
adhoori si aadat hai...meri..
zara si chahat hai

khwabon ko sajane ki,
tumhe apna banane ki,
anjaani shikayat hai...meri..
zara si chahat hai

kaash ki hoti mohabbat...
apko bhi humse!
judti fir nazar...jaana
apki bhi humse!

kya hai ki...
dil mein rehti hai sirf chahat..aur
zara si chahat hai... tumse!!

Mid Life Crisis

2007-04-26T00:56:00.000+03:00

For a girl whose thoughts rhyme... It was just an excuse to create a blog..

This blog gave me a chance to express and create..,
to learn.. and share..

I have shared my thghts...
my hopes..
my feelings.. my stories..
and am glad to have received such support from all of u...
sometimes strangers..
sometimes soulmates.. i say soulmate because.. "u all seem to get it!! :-)"

the post count is of 61 posts.. 55 of 'em being poems of my own..

Here is a big THANKYOU :D.. for your comments.. for your suggestions..
for being here... and walking this line with me.

I am not saying this is an end .. but I do wish for it to be a milestone..

A Closet

2007-04-24T05:36:00.000+03:00

anokhe se ek pal mein
dil ki baat keh di
tumhe kisiki chahat
.. kisiko dil ki rahat, mil gayi

dhunda humne hi bas kisiko nahin,
apnoko gairon ki chah mil gayi!

Rites of Passage

2007-04-10T20:48:00.000+03:00

One passes over..
One awaits the end
One still thinking..
if it would commence!

related in ridges
separated in rifts
sharing the story
looking within..

tied up in feelings
linked in faith
we talk through our lives
awaiting the fate

going through it all
a rite of passage..

A windy night

2007-04-04T06:36:00.000+03:00

awaiting the discomfort
of telling a lie
I turn in my sleep
troubled by thoughts
not mine to keep
not mine to believe..
sleep evades me
..as i open my eyes,
I see his face
in the moonlit night

tomorrow..
Till tomorrow i shall wait... again
not now.. not yet
i shall let him know.. in time..

you are not mine..
not my soul..
not my heart..
not my life...

a lie....

Tomb

2007-02-27T20:45:00.000+02:00

gathering a city
in bits ... in pieces
filling up the boxes
with ages... pages.. of history

abandoned halls
broken mirrors
murky cellars
.. of a city lost!

caricatures,
now meaningless
knowledge lost!

a story untold
of the silent words
aged and brewed in the dark
for a century

This tastes just like destiny!

Ghost and the flame

2007-02-07T18:57:00.000+02:00

He often compared
Darkness to Flames
Dwelling in dark
he would complain
"Selfish, elfish..
too brightly it glows!
must be ignorant
to be standing so bold"
But all it said in reply
was an answer so lame..
"The Lesson i have, is too simple to explain"

Aghast in his fears
he marched in dark corridors
awaiting the rescue
from the flame he now adored
"Take me..
Light me! delight me!!
It exclaimed..
For now I tire.. of darkness and its games"
But all it said in reply
was the answer in vain
"The Lesson i have, is too simple to explain"

Lost in his battles
he now wondered aloud
"what keeps you glowing
how-come u never run out"
He noticed with calm
"For I glow within you.. not about"

khayal

2007-01-31T21:54:00.000+02:00

kuch toota hai kahin
ek sheesha sa ab mere dil mein hai

kisi ne khadi kari hai ek diwar
ab un tak pahunchna mushkil mein hain

hairat to yeh hai ki
dard nahi hai.. gam nahi hai
fir bhi khush rehna ab mushkil mein hai

Hidden

2007-01-23T22:05:00.000+02:00

Unable to feel safe

i scout about

without being seen

without being sought

hunting for clues

for letting it out

surviving on grubs

i look about

they stand still

unable to hear me shout

i cry around

unseen unheard

trapped in a tragedy

striving to fly...

they call me a bird..

and i don't even know why..

chromaticity

2006-12-12T02:19:00.000+02:00

hiding beneath the hindering light
out of my sight
they waver beneath
crying in delight
half-heartedly i look them up
shook them up.. as if in fright
myriad colours...
on a journey of abundance
sighing with every breath
these colours of delight
what i seek ..
is the colours devoid
of flavour, of passion
of wisdom and kinds
the colour of darkness
forgiving in its cry
i seek .. i peek at the
colour of the blind
and then i find
the colour divine
of beauty, of passion,
of freedom, of fight..The peace,
within the white..
the morning.. after a long night

What's the story morning glory... ;-)

Change of Seasons

2006-11-29T22:19:00.000+02:00

{aching for you
is more of a habit
a morbid
sense of being i feel

but being with you
is suddenly tragic
trapping in itself
the emotions are real..

its not a change in season
i fear, its a change
in the memory of you

for loving you is a memory
a memory more lovely than .. you}

Vrindavan...

2006-11-02T01:54:00.000+02:00

As the day passes by..
in the cosy sarai..
potentially waiting, for a cup of chai..
I heave out .. and.. sigh.

eras have passed it seems..
leaving this place untouched..
its the same old gali
the same old nukkad...

radhe radhe..says the little boy
offering me the magical words
along with a kulhhad full of chai

breathing through the vintage halls..
this city of magic.. the city of lords
brajbhoomi.. where Gods were born

the touch of 'now' is seeping in
tones of a bhajan..emanate..
as the mobile rings..
loudspeakers blaring the new hit remix

kajrare kajrare.. tere kare naina krishna..
.. :)

here i belong..
it is here that i am from..

Soul Curry

2006-10-30T22:12:00.000+02:00

In boiling bother of this boring afternoon
bubbling and besieged by the broody look
upon thy face..

I seethe with sultry stupor
of senseless sanity, surrendering to the silence
of the bridges in-between..

I long for the lovingly lonesome and lavish
pauses..

I babble in incomprehension
I saddle up to go to the sun
I laugh away the moments gone

coz there are more to come around.

Get Frosted!

2006-10-25T18:46:00.000+03:00

WIND AND WINDOW FLOWER

Lovers, forget your love,
And List to the love of these,
She a window flower,
And he a winter breeze.

When the frosty window veil
Was melted down at noon,
And the caged yellow bird
Hung over her in tune,

He marked her through the pane,
He could not help but mark,
And only passed her by,
To come again in the dark.

He was a winter wind,
Concerned with ice and snow,
Dead weeds and unmated birds.
And little of love could know

But he sighed upon the sill,
He gave the sash a shake,
As witness all within
who lay that night awake.

Perchance he half prevailed
To win her for the flight
From the firelit looking-glass
And warm stove-window light.

But the flower leaned aside
And thought of naught to say,
And morning found the breeze
A hundred miles away.

-Robert Frost

Absence

2006-10-18T02:30:00.000+03:00

Out alone in the balmy night
just looking for someone to fight
I stand alone by the swing
fighting the frustrations from within

Nothing.. to prepare
Nothing.. to rebel
Nothing.. to love
Nothing.. to gain

Have been caged here in solitude
I seem to be lost to my friends..
Because eventho they write to me
I sometimes think they pretend..

hoping for a remedy
to cure away this pain
I long to be with someone again
to fill up.... the absence

Saanjh

2006-10-05T22:21:00.000+03:00

saanjh ki nami mein
saason ki baarish
simte hue ek pal mein
afsaano si khwaish..

dubte hue suraj si
dhalti hui aankhen
bheege un lamhon mein
thehar jaane ki khwaish..

girte hue patton ki
sehmi si sarsarahat
jannat ki is mehfil mein
ghar basane ki khwaish..

har saanjh mein, ek pal
ek pal , ek lamha
ek lamha yun jismein
poori zindagi jee lene ki khwaish..

Nanoseconds

2006-10-02T22:58:00.000+03:00

Rupturing a heart
watching it explode
a million pieces gone
a million more to go
chanting an anthem
commanding the pain to go
i stand still
the emotions flow
staring at a reflection
willing for it to change
...................................... a penny for your thoughts
the stranger exclaimed
bringing up a smile
on a tarnished face
................................. All goes on
on its usual pace
no the world doesnt stop
to acknowledge your pain
.............................. It lets you go
so that you can let go
living the life
one nanosecond at a time

Blowing winds

2006-09-25T07:35:00.000+03:00

I often just sit up and try to figure out what is it that i am supposed to be hanging around here for?
which question is assigned for me to solve?
what answer am i searching for?
who am i waiting here for?
andwhen i find answer to none of these questions..
i cant figure out what it is that i am trying to figure out?
entagled in the questions.. i see myself turn into a question mark...
an entwined curve hanging around.. with a dot of inconsequence toward the end..
I am turning into a question mark
questioning all that there is and all that is to come around..
why why why.. who what .. i cry.. endlessly..
as i listen in to the song...

the answer my friend is blowin in the wind...
the answer is blowing in the wind ..

And then there are days like these...

2006-08-24T20:00:00.001+03:00

Heirarchy of disorder
tumbling down the landscape
of thoughts and visions
of words yet unspoken
of risks always taken

In the society of bees
drumming, humming
through the haze
unscathed, unhurried
finding the way through the maze

frittering away in search of gold,
sweet honey, to take back home
selling away something inside of us
at every turn
at every chance
at every glance
we are far far far away from home

i wish only to go back now
to go back even without the gold
without the sweet honey pot, i told
that i would bring..
I wish to come back home
before i lose all that is within

Rant and Rave

2006-08-03T00:46:00.000+03:00

Locked up in an Iron cage
fed on an Iron Plate
yet unseen, uncovered thoughts
hiding beneath the Iron Mask
unleashed on the plains of peace
leaving the scars
of unpleasant times
reeking .. unpleasant memories
flooding the remains
with unheeded rage
opening valves of scourging lava
flammable words
errupting from the forked cave
stealing away the calm,
the nothingness..
bringing in a change...

Dil Ki Ankahee

2006-07-30T22:41:00.000+03:00

Dil bas chupke se sunta hai
Kuch bhi kehne se darta hai
Is duniya ki har galti mein
Bewak shamil hota hai

Num aankhon se bas
Kuchch apne gam baant leta hai..
Apna bojh halka kar leta hai..

Tanha woh kisiki talaash mein
Har dil ko apnana chahta hai
Par bezuban yeh dil
Humrahi ke intezaar mein,
Raah mein gumsum sa khada reh jata hai

Kabhi kabhi sannate mein uski sisak sunai de jaati hai
Aankhon mein tab uske dard ki jhalak nazar aati hai

Jhooti dilaasa dekar , is dil ko behlate hain
Uski ankahee ko ansuni karne ki hum roz lakh koshishe karte hain

Ab yeh haal hai …

Ki hum bhi khamosh hain
Dil bhi khamosh hai…

Lethargy

2006-07-25T17:51:00.000+03:00

Idle at the moment
in the moment
another moment arrives
and the idle moment dies

I try to hold on to
the dying moment
as it slips away, in its loss
i lose another moment

I let it go, waiting for its return
but it has already gone
leaving me alone
with another moment to grieve

I keep waiting for the perfect moment
as each one comes
and moves along
bringing in another moment

.... this is lethargy at its best.. aplogies for this post :)

strangest "stop"

2006-07-11T00:36:00.000+03:00

Out on a stroll..
moving slowly like a troll
Stuck in a moment
In a Strife to comeout alone

Luxury of Silence bestowed
Gaping winds welcoming me ashore
Lonely trees to give company
Branches stowed beneath my feet

Dissceting the thoughts
i chafe with the knife
the wood scrapes out
curling.. whithering away

it begins to get familiar
the comfort of holding on
the moment is long gone
I found a friend resting right in my palms..

"In Love"

2006-07-05T22:51:00.001+03:00

In love i was
lookin at you
being with you
being for you always around
loving you.... giving you
all..without any bounds
loved the feeling of having you around
one look from you
to undertsand wht you are all about
listening to you for hours
talking to you....long into the night
I long to be tht fool again...laughin inside the covers in the night
I loved the smile which would find its way
on my face ..unclaimed
I loved to think that you are thinking of me
thinking about you the whole day..
I loved to anticipate wht u would want
to be there for you before you even need me
hanging around to see you get all you need
even if it was someone else that you loved truly

I thought..my heart could beat for you for ever
but now it stands broken..

The Ghost and The Warrior

2006-06-22T01:52:00.000+03:00

Shrouded Pathways, in the moonlit night
Forbidding and Inviting at the same time
He stood there, with Shields and Swords
To fight the Silence, with his honourable heart

aarggh.. the long wait...been hungry too long
hmph! dwelled here too long
many have come here, grrr....but no one for long..
i will wait for the next.. grrrrowl...how long???

Rising mist, carried a foul breath
A Warning!! "" keep away................."
The walls rippled, upside down in the tarn
Feets scurried away with fear, the Warrior was here!

grmppp..he arrives.. his stench anounces him..
brave he thinks he is..buurrrrff..
holds the sword too high...gaaahh..i see him
snip snip... i wait no more...

Creaking Doorway welcomes him...
Darkness envelopes, eludes all forms
With Unseen shapes all around
He prepares to fight!!!

har har...his heart beats too fast
he moves too fast... gllmmmp

He Strikes with his Shining Sword
A Shriek Resonates the Big Halls

Glllllooomppp..... yummy....
They dont know .. the Great Shelob has been waiting for long.......gruhmpp

hunted!

2006-06-16T03:35:00.000+03:00

I just dont know..

2006-06-14T00:53:00.000+03:00

having traced all the lines of your face
i have read the lies in your eyes
still when its time to let you go
i just dont know...if i would

gazing into your vacant eyes
i taste the tears every night
even when you dont say anything
i just dont knw.... if i should

i give away all i can, meekly
withering away as slow as the hours past
and even when you call out for help
i just dont know... if i could

Days Gone by...

2006-06-05T22:49:00.000+03:00

Came across a poem by Alfred Tennyson, wanted to share with you all..

"The Princess":

Tears, idle tears, I know not what they mean,
Tears from the depth of some divine despair
Rise in the heart, and gather to the eyes,
In looking on the happy autumn-fields,
And thinking of the days no more.

Fresh as the first beam glittering on a sail
That brings our friends up from the underworld,
Sad as the last which reddens over one
That sinks with all we love below the verge;
So sad, so fresh, the days that are no more.

Ah, sad and strange as in dark summer dawns
The earliest pipe of half-awaken'd birds
To dying ears, when unto dying eyes
The casement slowly grows a glimmering square;
So sad, so strange, the days that are no more.

Dear as remember'd kisses after death,
And sweet as those by hopeless fancy feign'd
On lips that are for others; deep as love
Deep as first love, and wild with all regret;
O Death in Life, the days that are no more!

Elysium

2006-05-31T01:28:00.000+03:00

what if.. I was to live in my own world
how different will it be from now?
A land, which would be quite like the middle earth
peaceful, like the shire

I quite hope , that Hogwarts would feature in it too
that magic would find an everyday regularity
where believeing in yourself and your love,
would still be the strongest magic of all..

it would be quite alright
to start dancing in the middle of the night
or just whenever, wherever we feel like
to laugh out loud and clap our hands in delight

adventures during every summer break
Santa Claus visiting on every christmas eve
secret passages to lost treasures
and despite all.. a "happily ever after" for all!

-
:-)

Lost

2006-05-21T06:38:00.000+03:00

just like a pricey posession of mine
i hold on to all happiness i can find
i weave my dreams around it
foolish dreams of having it forever as mine

the joy makes me giddy
and i loosen the grip a little
i want it to spread around
for everyone to know, what will forever be mine

my laugh sounds musical
i am twirling around
having found what everyone keeps looking for
then next instant i lost, that which was to be forever mine

silently i keep searching
trying to hold on to it
but it is nowhere to be found
now it wont ever be mine

Morpheus

2006-05-11T19:47:00.000+03:00

Withering wisps of trivialities
enticing games of make-believe
in diminished realities
are, unseen memmories
endless conversations,
in the silence...
of the sleepy slumber.
no boundaries exist,
beneath the myriad colours
but a playground of memories

reflections perceptions askew
revelations realised
awaiting at dawn, for dusk..
in the dark towers of sand
i bid you to my world..

Mirage

2006-05-07T06:44:00.000+03:00

"Silences"

2006-04-21T01:15:00.000+03:00

Distraught in silences
Enclosed in muffled screams
I live in a void...
shouting, just to be seen

Struggling through the conversation
learning to listen..
sounds i cannot hear
I make up the words..

Aching pain, numbs me
makes me feel restless
I give in to the darkness
stifling the cries

Scentences wither away
midway
losing their sense
mumblings, rumblings

My lips part... and then... nothing.

Mundane

2006-04-13T01:22:00.000+03:00

losing myself in inches..
in the everyday regularity
escaping the last second
to relive it again

continual routine
variant in degrees, too miniscule
i am no longer unique,
existing day-in and day-out

clashin inside everyday
the two minds
one which wants to change
and the one who does not

i am reaching out
but am not yet there
the comfort in being mundane
seems more promising

fighting in this battle
to salvage my soul
hoping to be reborn
breaking the chains of lethargy

Thunderbirds

2006-04-06T00:53:00.000+03:00

stashed inside are a million men
a million songs...stories and ends
memories..all gasping for air
stifling inside, crumpled in a corner
inside the trunk, which has lost its key
the ghosts are rattling

haunting for attention
they now command the crossroads
appearing unexpectedly
excruciatingly they gaze
upon all that is "now" and
all that is soon to be...

I lull myself to sleep
swimming in tears,wet with dismay
they beg to forget, to be forgotten
the death of a memory..

i wish for them to be revived
but thunderbirds dont sing that song anymore..

classroom

2006-04-03T01:00:00.000+03:00

truly a sight..

fists cuddled in fight..
the corner occupied..
others.. go on walkin by
its the lunchtime

a few gather in the hall
exchanging tidbits
from their lunchboxes and their lives
giggling in delight

someone else is sobbing away
the cruelty of life
comforting words are being said..
afterall there is another test
coming up after the lunchtime..

notebooks, chalks, benches..
are being arranged
everyone is in their place
blackboard has been cleaned

and then the bell rings...

Figuratively speaking

2006-03-20T20:33:00.000+02:00

Honest eyes stare back
tears sliding down the cheeks

But as my glance rests on the smile
it takes me completely by surprise..

Tragedy seems shattered
Comedy finds its mark
Reality demurely walks in
more endearing than all the princely fantasies around

For it might be that
the knife was supposed to kill her
But he was holding it
upside down

Ludicrous

2006-03-07T22:38:00.000+02:00

A mundane day
inching along..
cloaked in lethargy
wearing it as a gown

slipping on its endlesss threads
falling on our face
in front of a crowd
holding on to it.. like a clown

no..it means more to me
i cannot give it away
its what i am ..u see
(using it a shield)

Its true ..u know
I cant find myself inside nowadays
But its a lovely cloak..
keeps me ... away

Mild Hysteria

2006-03-02T22:20:00.000+02:00

alone on a sidewalk
her legs are criss-crossed
sitting down on the pavement
her vacant eyes stare

with colours of magic all around her
in her secret chamber she waits
head bowed low, as if in prayer
hands clasped tight around her waist

the mirror is cracking
all seems fake, unreal
like a marching army
the crowd gathers around her

curiosity..curiosity...
a burning question all around
they can sense it too now
the moment is approaching

as she looks around
her last sight is a blur
the hunger gets to her
before the poison....

Revive from the reverie!

2006-02-18T02:22:00.000+02:00

Liberate a thought
and let it feed on the gospels
stoically it will grow
into its own form
like a fire
consumed with passionate energy
bringing to ashes
all the cobwebs, the dry cackling sound
of the burning wood
all is charred, blackened with soot
glowing embers still remain
to rekindle, to keep alive
the rising smoke
raises the alarm

setting the stage
for a revolution!

Valentine's Day

2006-02-13T07:12:00.000+02:00

Well..i thought i could write a poem on this romantic eve...
but i guess.. sylvia plath just says it all in this poem..
its titled
MAD girl's love song

"I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)"